Rant 172 / All Those Moments Will Be Lost In Time, Like Tears In Rain.

Even the most atrocious deed has its benefits. Nothing is without a price. Nothing is without a consequence. Nothing is without its pros and cons.


What all children really need is someone who inspires them to do great things. Once a child meets one and becomes inspired to dream big dreams, he/she will have the motivation to do something. Motivation is the most important thing one must have if one wants do anything with one's life.

What use is discipline if one has no motivation to use it?






Seriously, do people wipe their asses properly after passing motion? Twice in two years I have encountered people who smells like shit without my nose anywhere near their asses. Wtf ppl? How clean do other people wipe their asses? Personally I'd prefer water since it's the best solution after all. But when left with no choice, I'd wipe till the papers are clean when they leave my hand. That is what I mean by properly - when there is not even a stain left to wipe.

But fuck man, the smell of shit is strong. My guess is that even one tiny speck will create whiffs of disgusting odour that will repel all who come near the person. But I'm usually too polite to even mention it. I'm pretty sure they smell it too and there is no way to solve it other than changing their underwear and cleaning their ass again.

No matter how urgent life gets, please, please wipe properly. One instant of detecting such a smell is all it takes to shock the senses.







This is yet another healthy day for me. So far, all I've eaten is porridge cooked with a little chicken stock that has no added MSG, and 2/3 of a jar of bamboo shoots mixed with mushroom and gluten. And a few sticks of these cheap Apollo chocolate wafer. As for drinks, I have this 500ml bottle filled with osmanthus green tea made from 2 packets of powder.

A vegetarian diet right after a day of stuffing myself at Kushin-Bo. Need to offset some of the sins.




I fear to think what will happen after this year. My inspiration will be leaving. What will continue to motivate me?




What can change the nature of a man? I believe I have found my answer.





What can change the nature of a man? I am no longer the nihilist I once was. Perhaps I still believe in a nihilistic approach in many things in life, but for once, I have a reason to do something in life. The only difference between the nihilist that I was and a scholar is our motivations. I had no reason to do anything. The main reason I am here was because I don't want to live a shitty life like the way those contractors and technicians I used to escort do. But that's it. I didn't have any reason whatsoever to make me even want to get honours for my degree.

What can change the nature of a man? Now I want to get a Ph.D someday. Nothing in life mattered. Nothing else in life matters. I had no reason to live. I have no other reason to live.

What can change the nature of a man? As a nihilist in many ways, one of the truths I have figured out is that there is no higher meaning in life. Our purpose is what we make it to be. So here, this shall be my purpose. First and foremost, I shall be doing this for her. If one day I should ever lose this reason, a Ph.D is still good for many things, like a comfortable life in the academic world.

What can change the nature of a man? How can a nihilist become motivated? They generally live and die very quietly. No one ever remembers a person who has never done anything right or wrong. Few ever spread their beliefs because they have no reason to do so.

What can change the nature of a man?







It is not right. There is not enough time in a day to complete what I need to do.

Rant 171 / Coke Zero Contains Zero Coke

For some reason I have yet to comprehend, HX keeps trying to visit me on Thursday nights, when I'm having my TMC chapter meetings. I'm in the Exco as the SAA, so I have to be the first to arrive and last to leave. I need to set up stuff before the meeting and pack up after it. And for the last few meetings I have been staying with some of the members for supper after I'm done. So I've been reaching my room after 12am for those few times.

Somehow at about 10pm each Thursday, HX would message me expressing his surprise at my absence from my room. And unfortunately, he was trying to celebrate my birthday yesterday. In the end, he left a can of 100 Plus and an orange in my empty shoe cabinet and left for home.

That was not the first time that day. On the night before, he asked me when my first class began on Thursday. I told him, thinking he was considering staying over at my room again, but didn't want to disturb me in the morning or something. Hey, people change, and I can never tell which way they go when they do.

And on Thursday morning 15mins before class, when I was already in the lecture theatre, drinking a warm cup of sugar-free soy milk and waiting for the class to begin, I receive another text message from HX who was exclaiming at my remarkably early departure and that he had prepared breakfast for me. :(

HX is no longer the man I once knew. Gotta give him something for his birthday. Maybe this keylogger I found will do.... LOL just kidding.





Discovered that I can no longer use the same trick to bypass Vista's password. It is the first version of Windows that requires a password to log on to even the Safe Mode. So now the only way is to download a certain program, burn it into a cd and boot from it. This will work even for the admin account. *Evil grin*

But if I ever attempt that, I will be changing my status from observer to skript kiddie. I don't believe that's going to be beneficial to me.




Bought a box of the Viennetta just now. Was watching 4 consecutive episodes of Naruto while eating it. My mum discovered this when I had barely begun and demanded to have a bite. I refused at first because she is diabetic, but she's the boss after all... Anyway after so many years without a taste of this ice cream, it was as good as I expected it to be. The cream at the bottom was so smooth. The layers of chocolate was fantastic. In short, it's the next best thing to an orgasm.

But disaster struck. By the time I finished half of it, I no longer felt hungry. My enthusiasm for it waned. I finished the whole thing in the end, but half of it was not fully appreciated. What a waste. I didn't have the space and container to store it in the fridge.




So now I have a tie and some long-sleeve shirts. Now all I need is a new pair of shoes. Discovered I don't need a blazer, so things are much simpler now. Just a pair of shoes that I can wear on formal and informal occasions. Like those trekking shoes.





Overheard a conversation that made me stop believing in nihilism again. Perhaps having no life is a necessity. Inspirations only come once in a long while.





A girl who is drop-dead gorgeous, extremely intelligent, very lively and has eyes a man can drown in, can be described as "a mortal goddess". Yes, I believe I have met one, but she is a scholar! And she wants to get a Ph.D and retire by 40! IMHO she's an unbelievably rare specimen of the perfect woman (understatement of the year), but I think this dream will remain a mere dream. I think I'll rather stay single forever now. Compared to her, all girls are ugly and shallow.

C'est la vie.




One of the candidates for JCRC has resort to outright electoral fraud by giving out candies stapled to a little note that says," J***** for Publications!" (Name censored for no reason whatsoever)This should be a criminal offence, if it isn't already. No way am I voting for her, not that I'm voting for anyone though.






One thing at a time. First I'll fix my work, then I'll do something about my fitness... I think I'm unable to escape from RT this time.





Recently discovered that I can use my computer wallpapers in my handphone. I'm a complete handphone noob. Didn't know it can support .gif wallpapers either!





Was a little surprised when a friend I don't really talk to wished me "happy birthday". I don't expect people to remember my birthday. In fact, I've told my mum long ago not to celebrate it. So I was somewhat confused that he noticed. Turns out someone had posted a message on my facebook wishing me a "happy birthday". Haven't checked it for some time.

I thought I had done something to warrant notice and got me a kind of worried lol.

Rant 170 / So Ronery

Atlantica Online is back! Unfortunately, I can't play it today. Managed to update it though, so I can get right into the playing when I'm free.





Almost finished Space Seige. Just want to get to the ending and be done with it. Seriously can't play this game so soon after finishing Mass Effect. I can really tell the incredible gap in quality between the two. Blah.




Spore incoming!



Red Alert 3 incoming! But I'm guessing my laptop won't be able to handle it. :(





Didn't expect so many people to come on the first TMC chapter meeting. About 70 people turned up for the meeting. I had prepared for only 50. And there weren't enough chairs. Blah. Work is work. At least they've got the guts to go up and participate in the Table-Topics Session, even though I didn't show any mercy when I set the topics.




Tomorrow is yet another tough day, with 3 lectures in a row right from 8.30am and a physiotherapy session in the afternoon. I want a free day, but life is not always soft and comfortable.

Rant 169 / No More Shall I Post Pics That Don't Link To The Post.

The epic thread on /r9k/ is truly epic. Over 400 posts and still counting. More than half are actual life-tips from all kinds of people, and most actually make sense. This is one of the friggin rare threads that only appears once a year or something.




I'd make pancakes in the hall if not for the fact that no one is there to eat it except me. This place is quiet as fuck in the day. It's as if people living on this level are nocturnal creatures.

And SOMEONE FUCKING KILL THAT GUY WHO SLAMS HIS DOOR ALL DAY! Someday when I find out who that mahfah is he's going to get a really pleasant surprise. Pleasant to me, that is.






Many reasons. How many lies?





I can't think. I have brainrot. My mental degeneration is nearing completion. Soon, all I can say will be "FUCK!" Some wise dude once said," The greatest critic is yourself" or something along that line. Indeed, I think I suck balls. Metaphorically speaking, of course.

Nothing makes sense to me anymore. It's like I cannot think of anything except one very special matter. If only I can just stay home and meet no one, none of these troubles would have occured. I'll just feel very lonely.

The price. The price is high for all things good. Life is a long string of exchanges. You get what you paid for, but it may not be what you expect it to be. Work work...





Found some sites that teach people how to hack, with links to online resources skript kiddies can use. Perhaps someday I will be a skript kiddy. Then all hell shall break loose for the motherfucking asshole who slams the door all the time.

Rant 168 / A Visual Rickroll Now Available!

Space Seige. I wonder what is going to be affected by my Humanity level. Not going to check the forums for that. Want to keep the ending a surprise.



Modern Greece seems to be a very boring place. Bleh.



Someone actually defended Singapore in a discussion on /trv/ in 4chan. Wow... Unfortunately for him/her, all of the arguments for Singapore was countered completely. Sad.



Some discussions on /r9k/ are actually quite civilized and human. Unlike /b/, which is like a gigantic pile of virtual manure. For example there is this discussion on whether Asians are inherently smarter than whites. But it eventually evolved into a debate on whether whites are smarter than blacks. It was interesting at first though.




So fucking hungry just now. Classes started at 2.30pm today, so I got up at 11am and thought that I could have brunch at 1.30pm or something. So I held off my hunger and finally at 1.30pm reached Broadway, that new food court at North Spine. It was then that I remembered how motherfucking crowded that place is at lunch time. Fuck. So i hurriedly bought a cup of Milo and left. Spent the rest of the time printing stuff at the library before going to class.

Being hungry enough to eat a whole elephant (if it was cooked and placed in front of me), I decided I need some meat to satisfy myself. Bought a packet of rice from the Chinese food stall at Canteen 14. Then my hunger drove me crazy and made me think that I can't be satisfied with just that. So I cooked a packet of Udon and mixed it with a packet of instant miso soup.

It was actually edible.

Now I'm full. Fucking full.

Why am I typing this anyway?






The heart persists in troubling me. I shall endure. The root of all evil is desire.






What are names? A name is something that identifies you. A name is the key to your soul. Everytime your name is given to another, he/she has access to your soul. How much is revealed to them depends on the security protocol that you employ. Personally, I have little that I do not reveal. Everyone knows everything about me. LOL! Kidding. I don't believe anyone knows everything about me. Heck, not even my mum knows me completely.

But I digress.

A name can also be worthless. Fake keys are easy to make. Therefore, the above only applies to one's true name. Saw this in Planescape: Torment, and it's only now that I actually understand what they're talking about.

A man with many names has a soul that is hard to penetrate. This is especially true in the web. I don't have many names online. Senor_Hybrido is the usual alias I use. Hybrido if they don't give me enough space.

And why the fuck would anyone need to ask me what this name means? I mean, the name's self explanatory. I'm sorry if you're one of those who asked me. Maybe you needed more time to understand the name. And anyway, online names do not need to be meaningful.





Atlantica Online IS STILL OFFLINE! Gah! They postponed the opening of Closed Beta Round 3 to TOMORROW at 9am! At least this time they said it's confirmed to be that time. Doesn't do much good, but makes it sound more comforting. I need a fucking online fix!

Rant 167 / WHAT THE FUCK?!?!?!??!?!

12.25am, Monday morning. Planning to sleep at 1am.

Was checking my Windows Messenger when I saw that I have 2 emails. Never did I expect the shit I was going to see.

The emails were from my Toastmasters Club President, one titled Latest Updates and another, Correction. Of course, I clicked on the Updates. And it says he's been arrowed to organise the Area level Humourous Speech and Evaluation contest. Area level is the one above Club level, which is within the club. The next line was.... "For this I would like (my name) to be the contest chair."



BANG!

Lethal arrow.

Fatal wound.

I'm about to die.

On one hand, I'm somewhat honoured and excited. Honoured because I've been chosen to do the highest level MC job that I will ever get in this club. Excited because it's going to look good on my Leadership manual and even my future resume.

On the other hand, OMFG! WHAT THE FUCK IS HE FUCKING THINKING SHOVING THE FUCK-TON OF MOTHERFUCKING SHIT ON ME?!?!?! I'm only slightly acquainted with the club level contest by being a "door guard" last year. Now AREA LEVEL MC??? SHIT!! And I've got about a month to prepare. 13th Sept. Shit!

Oh wait, it means I've got to get a jacket and tie too! Fuck! I don't even have a tie! My leather shoes are already a mold farm in some box somewhere.

And I don't even know what to do!

Fuck!

Fuck!

Fuck!

Rant 166 / To Do It Or Not To Do It?

"What can change the nature of a man?"

A quote from Planescape: Torment.




My pancakes failed. They were actually edible, but I made them too soft. Too much milk or too much baking powder. The aroma pwned though. Anyway, THEY AREN'T SUPPOSED TO BE COMPARED WITH FUCKING MAC HOTCAKES!!!!!

Holy cow! Hotcakes are called hotcakes because it's illegal to sell them as pancakes. They aren't pancakes because they use different ingredients. For one, hotcakes do not contain eggs.





Golgo 13 is the only person, even though he is fictional, to have sex with a straight face. I mean, wtf?






Recently there's been a wave of idiocy sweeping across 4chan. Apparently, it started with some hacker posting a picture and telling others to run it as a .js file. And many did. I believe one of the effects is that it makes the computers post the same message as a new thread on 4chan, causing much spam. No idea what the other effects are, but now 4chan has made its sub-heading in all boards a warning against saving pictures and running them as .js. Those guys are such morons.







My download speed on Fri afternoon was so slow I was wondering if my laptop was getting too full. And indeed it was. So I deleted quite a number of games and got it to about 60% filled. But it was still slow, so I scanned through the processes running in my computer and found this BTDNA program.

Googled it and it seems that this is a BT program that doesn't have an interface yet. It is a BT program for streaming videos. Supposedly harmless, but deleted it anyway. Coincidentally, my download speed went up after that.





Right now, the music coming from next door sounds like those from some old chinese strip-mahjong games I used to see during my secondary school days. Crappy midi files. Wtf is the guy doing next door? First he slams his door a number of times today. Now he's making me suffer these horrible noises? WHAT KIND OF FIEND IS LIVING NEXT DOOR?!?! AND WHY?!? WHY??!

Rant 165 / Mass Effect >>>>> Space Seige

According to NASA, foils cause lift because of the change in velocity. It is not necessary for foils to have a longer upper surface than lower. The theory that lift is cause by difference in air pressure is right but cannot account for the force which, in reality, is much different from what we can get from using Bernoulli's equation. They haven't been teaching us the right things in school.






Space Seige is way inferior to Mass Effect. Poor Sega. Will Sega ever return to its former glory again?

For one, the MONSTERS ARE ALWAYS THE SAME! Except for their colours and names, they are mostly the same damned models. 10 years ago, that may have been tolerable. But this is no longer the age of Diablo 2! We demand more models! We demand more weapons! We demand additional lumber!

Controls are shit. Try it and find out.

Some of the guns are the most useless ever imagined. The third gun for my robot was some kind of shower thing that sprayed 3-4 bolts of fire every half a second over a large arc. Wtf is that supposed to kill? I watched it spray that thing towards a monster for a few seconds after I was done with the rest, and only 1 fucking bolt hit the target. The rest were so spread out it didn't matter what the damage of each bolt was. Even though the dps (damage per second) was freaking attractive, I had no choice but to replace it with its machine gun.

And my Sonic Blaster was crap!

And I want to remove all upgrades from my guns so that I can have something to upgrade my new guns with! My old Submachine Guns are so pimped that the fucking assault rifle do less damage than them! But in the long run, it's not going to be good to use the Submachine Guns since there is a limit to how much I can upgrade.

Which means I shouldn't even waste my creds on pimping the guns anyway until I get some of the last guns.

And there is little difference between the Submachine Guns and the Assault Rifle since accuracy is not a factor in this game. So... what's the point of having the two of them?

The only good point it has is that it provides me with some entertainment until I get another game.. Maybe Dawn of War and its 3 expansions.






Found a thread on 4chan's /r9k/ which seems pretty epic. It about tips in life. Here are some quotes:

- Easily make yourself more engaging and seem more interested in your partner/S.O./potential mate/etc. by counting the number of blinks that the other person makes. You'll be looking straight into their eyes with a purpose as opposed to an awkward look away.

- Life tip: pretend confidence is better than no confidence at all

- Be honest. It's a lot of effort trying to keep track of your lies.

- 90% of all human wisdom is staying out of other peoples' business.

- Give a good firm handshake with eye contact. Don't shake hands like you're receiving a napkin they're handing you.

- If you hint at getting together with a girl, it's not that she didn't see the hint, she just didn't want to be with you. And she's not playing 'hard to get'. Just forget about her, the more you chase, the bigger the idiot you'll look.

- learn to have an urge to throw away/store food as soon as you can't eat it all.

you either pay in your food waste loss, or you pay dearly for being fat.

- My tip: It sounds like common sense, but be well-rounded. Do a little bit of everything if you can. In the very least, do something physical, something creative, something logic-based, and something that everybody does. I see too many people in engineering that don't have enough creativity. Get a lot of experiences under your belt. Tell the really funny ones at parties and during conversations.
Tip 2: For those who have trouble socializing, try asking questions. People generally love to talk about themselves. Nothing too personal though. If you are acquainted with someone and you know you don't come off as creepy, people like to talk about their kids especially. Be agreeable. I'm not saying you necessarily have to be fake but it's easier to get what you want when people like you.

- The best way to get girls is to stop judging everyone for every damn thing they do. Ever heard of a girl with a fetish for easily butthurt nerds? Yeah. Stop being that guy. Give people a chance.

- When you've been hurt by someone - Assume ignorance instead of malice

- I don't recommend staring at women in general settings that aren't implicitly or explicitly made for the mating game. It makes us uncomfortable. Except the girls who cocktease and like the attention but won't put out. The only exception is if you're really attractive because women are superficial bitches. You can stare all you want when she isn't looking but her friends might rat on you, typically with a comment like, "oh, that guy is staring at your tits". It's no loss if it's a stranger who you'll never see again but if you actually know her, it can make or break it, depending if she liked you beforehand. If you stare at a girl and smile to catch her interest and she doesn't reciprocate, there's pretty much no chance.




All these seem to make sense to me. But these are not all. Unfortunately, I'm not going to read the whole thread. Half of it is already long enough. And this thread should be gone in 2 days.

Rant 164 / You Know That Thing On Top Of The Guy's Shoulders? THAT'S HIS HEAD! SHOOT THAT!

No games interest me but Atlantica Online, and it's down. Perhaps it's because it's the closest I've got to RPGs I play on PS2. Turn-based and stuff. Well, I still play Urban Dead, but that doesn't even take 10mins of my time to use up my APs.

Slippers broke. I took the oldest pair at home that could fit my feet from home and they broke in a week. My feet are too big for the aging glue inside. The flap above has been unstuck from the sole on one side of the left slipper. So after several experiments with slippers and staples, I realized my foot exerts a huge force on the flap with every step, larger than what 10 staples can take.

I wore my shoes to go out today, until I finally reached the point when I had to take a shower. Shoes aren't suitable for that, so I had to really think of a way to fix my slippers or sleep with an itchy scalp.

After long periods of thought and a moderate amount of cursing aloud, I realized I need something to absorb the force from my foot. Something elastic. A rubber band. I looked around and saw one that I had used to tie a wire. I removed it and looped it through a hole at the side of the flap. Using my handy little stapler, I stapled the two ends underneath the sole.

Before I could wear it outside, I had to test it. So I slipped it on and walked a few steps around my room. It worked! I took it off and checked the staples, which were all in place, as I expected.

Woohoo! Now I have clean hair again!








Yet again, my mind has conquered my heart.








It never matters what sort of government a country has. If the people are united, the country will always stand strong. It can be quite obvious if we compare the US and China with certain democratic African nations. Therefore, Singapore's system has nothing wrong with it. A dictatorship may not guarantee that each successive dictator will not ruin the country, but neither can a democracy simply because the majority of all people are idiots and should not be allowed to vote.

Am I one of them? Maybe. But then, I'm not voting for anyone.





Ep 5 of Pure Pwnage Season 2 is hilarious.

The rant at the beginning about noobs was the best rant ever.

And the part where they read gaming forums was ownage.
"'Can someone give me tips for getting headshots?'

You know that thing on top of the guy's shoulders? THAT'S HIS HEAD! SHOOT THAT!"







Tried Space Seige just now. Nice game, but the controls are like shit. It's completely dependent on the mouse for movement control. The keyboard is only used for the camera movement, which the mouse wheel can control too. Basically, there is no use for the keyboard except for abilities of both the robot and the guy himself. And that's pretty crappy too since the robot's abilities are on the F# (F1-4) while the guy's are on the number row(1-0). Can easily press the wrong button. I did precisely that during one intense battle when I was trying to press 4 to throw a grenade but instead hit F4 which made my robot stop and repair itself for a few seconds. WTF! Almost got raped then.

Graphics are poorer than Mass Effect's(which isn't impt to me since my comp can barely take even this game at minimum settings) and according to my bro, shorter too.

Where is SPORE?!?!?!

Rant 163 / Made of 100% Pure Win

Only ate half the rice last night because of fatigue. Used the remaining rice to make porridge this morning and ate it with this jar of pickled cucumber. Only used about a quarter and I need to store this in a fridge if I want to leave it for another week.

Since I have no fridge, I shall have to finish it today, ie, eat porridge with pickled cucumber for all meals today and maybe tomorrow. Woohoo!

Watching Round 2 of the finals between Jaedong and Flash in the Averatec-Intel Classic tournament (the biggest Starcraft tournament in S. Korea) while eating. Round 1 was amazing. Even though Flash practically outclassed everyone in the past, even in the semi-finals, Jaedong did the same to him in that first round. Right from the start, Flash lost map control when his scouting SCV was killed by 6 zerglings sent by Jaedong. He lost his "eye" then. Then Jaedong seemingly created Mutalisks with magic and sent those flying units to harass Flash who still had not expanded (which is normal for Terrans because Zergs can expand faster) and only had some Marines to defend.

Flash, using his godlike skills, managed to pushed them off, built some Turrets and began to build a Starport for some Science Vessels (which has Irradiate, an ability that's fucking good against Zergs). Jaedong saw that with his Mutalisks during one of the next few raids and destroyed first the turrets with his Beyond-Godlike skills and Mutalisks and went on to destroy the SCV building the Starport.

The SCV was killed and the Starport was heavily damaged and incomplete when he was finally pushed back again. Flash then sent an SCV to complete it while sneakily began the construction of yet another Starport deeper in his base. But alas, those Mutalisks, after destroying the first Starport, did not turn back and regroup. Instead, they went on in and explored the rest of Flash's base.

The Starport exploded and Jaedong retreated to regroup with more reinforcement. In his next attack, Flash finally couldn't take it anymore and decided to push all his Marines and Medics out. All or nothing. There was a short and desperate battle but how can a bunch of these 30 puny Terrans defeat about 15 Mutalisks which were so well controlled they were stacked into 1 single pile and looked as if there was only 1 Mutalisk attacking really fast?

Stacking Mutalisks like that help to reduce the area that can be attacked and also makes it easier to run away from the enemies' range without leaving stragglers. Also hides the numbers.

Flash lost. Owned. Right from the beginning.

Shall now watch Round 2.

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Round 2 was shorter then Round 1. Flash didn't even managed to push away the Mutalisks this time. He did manage to defend against some early Zerglings, but he waas unable to clear them away from the site he wanted to expand to. So he couldn't expand while Jaedong did.

When the Mutalisks came, it was fast. A few seconds into the battle, Flash lost ALL his Marines and was totally unable to defend againsts anything. His SCVs were then killed and the Mutalisks were sent to the Barracks where the new Marines got picked out one by one. That was when Flash typed," GG" and left the game.

That was fast! We haven't seen even a single Science Vessel so far! Never managed to reach that point.


Will watch Round 3 later.


Making my second pot of porridge. These 3 meals just used up half the rice I bought! Need to bring more next week.






3rd round was yet another one-sided game. Jaedong, this time, didn't rush with Mutalisks and instead played a long game with Ultralisks, the biggest Zerg unit. He built only small raiding groups of Zerglings and had tried to use an fleet of Guardians. The Zerglings were always successful suicide raiders, but the Guardians were rather ineffective. In the end, the Science Vessels arrived and Irradiated them all.

But then that was when the Ultralisks arrived. And Defilers. The Defilers' Dark Swarms were amazing because of how accurate Jaedong was. Dark Swarm causes a small area to be covered by an orange fog in which allied Zerg units cannot be attacked. This is used in battle and thrown onto wherever the enemies are standing so that the Zergs can attack while the enemies can't retaliate.

As for the Science Vessels, Jaedong sent in some Scourges, which are flying anti-air kamikaze units. He threw Dark Swarms right onto where the Vessels were moving into and the Scourges followed. BOOM! ONE DOWN! TWO DOWN! THREE! OMFG FOUR DOWN! Suddenly all Vessels were down, while the Ultralisks safely raped all the Marines and Medics.

In less than 10 minutes, Jaedong owned 3/4 of the map and Flash was just waiting for the final blow. He tried to shuttle in some Marines to Jaedong's base and managed to destroy the Defilers' Mound, but this final gasp for revenge didn't matter. And when he saw the Dark Swarms appearing near his main Command Center and the Ultralisks' arrival, he typed," GG" and left the game.

Total pwnage.

Rant 162 / What? Another Rant?

Since Atlantica is down, I have no games that I want to play except Urban Dead. And I've used up all my AP for today. I have games like Florensia and Asda and some single-player games, but Florensia sucks, ditto with Asda and I don't feel like using my brain anymore for tonight. So blog.





Seriously, lab is horrible. Right now my team is supposed to design an experiment to find the strain center and other details of a piece of metal, using formulae that will be taught four weeks from now in another module. I had headaches trying to think of a way to find the values. Lab sucks.






Said some rather mean stuff to a cute girl last night during supper. She was insulting everyone with her sarcastic remarks veiled by a pretty smile and calm words. No one caught all the real meanings of her words, but I did catch enough to get pissed off. But poor ol' me can never show my anger with a pissed off face. Not till I want to kill someone anyway.

But irritated I was, and before I could stop my mouth, I said some things that weren't very nice to her, also covered with a smile of mine. And it seems that she didn't catch it either. Good for her lol! Everyone thought I was joking simply because I didn't use obvious words like "bitch".

But I did feel guilty and just in case someone did realize I wasn't joking, I sent an offline msg on messenger to apologize. She replied with a counter apology for insulting everyone. And it was then that I found out she didn't even know I was pissed. But then again, who knows if that wasn't some veiled remark mixed with feigned ignorance? Whatever. I've done what I had to do to mend the tears in the relationship.

Of course, one should never have bad relations with pretty faces and girls. They tend to have huge networks and can often help you when you need it. Guys too, but I'm kinda biased here for obvious reasons.

She's still a bitch though. Pretty face or not, those remarks with hidden meanings were uncalled for. We were all being nice to each other. She must be pretty unhappy inside. A bitter little girl at heart. If not for that very fundamental flaw, she'd be the perfect woman. But the perfect woman does not exist, and cannot exist. C'est la vie.






Read about the Winter War that began shortly before WWII. It began with the invasion of Finland from the USSR. Very interesting

The Russians had a million men while the Finnish had a quarter that to defend. In basic warfare strategies, it is generally considered safe to attack with at least 3 times as many attackers as defenders. They have 4 times the number of defenders.

The Russians sent in over 6,500 tanks. The Finnish tanks numbered 30. GG? That's not all.

Finland had only 130 aircrafts versus 3,800 Russian planes. That is GG.


USSR won the war. However, that is merely one side of the story. Let's look at the other.

Over 126 thousands Russians died or went missing in this war. That's an eighth of the total number of invaders. The Finnish lost over 26 thousand troops. That's about a tenth. Also that is a fifth of what the Russians lost.

The Russians also had over 260 thousand soldiers injured and 5,600 captured. Only about 40 thousand Finnish men were injured and a thousand captured.

The Soviet Union also lost more than 2,200 tanks and over a thousand aircrafts in this war. Finland lost none. GG.

But they won the war simply by force of numbers. However, they merely got a thin slice of land from Finland which was eventually returned when the USSR collapsed.

The first time I saw the numbers in this war, I was like "WTF?"







Beginning to plan the train trip. I have a website that shows the designated camping sites in all European countries. Will be very useful in the future when I get into the details.


Also found a website that introduces the rail pass that I will be needing to take trains to most countries in Europe without having to pay a fortune. Very useful too.

What's wrong with trains anyway? They don't need your attention at the wheels all the time. They don't go too fast like planes. They aren't too expensive. Perfect for travellers. Unless they're interested to visit the countryside and the other less developed areas.

Rant 161 / Wouldn't You Agree?

That last rant really reeked of butthurt when I thought about it after posting. Perhaps it was more extreme than it should be. Perhaps it is worth the price. But then again, how many couples actually get to live together till a ripe old age?











Just something I made using http://www.wittycomics.com/make-comic.php which is a great website for a bored college student.




Atlantica Online iS DOWN TILL THE 25TH TENTATIVELY!!! OMFG!! ARGH!! DIE!!!!






First time cooking rice in hall. Not too bad. Only added too much water so it began to burn before it hardened. I prefer hard rice. Bleh. So I let cool for half an hour under the fan until it dried up a little before adding the HOLY JAPANESE CONDIMENTS OF STUNNING FLAVOURS.





Finally noticed how Coca-Cola doesn't bubble till you pour it into your mouth. It must be freaking sterile in there before I open it. And freaking smooth.





A beautful bitch is still a bitch. Once again someone proves me right. I guess no matter what, all people are born with just as many flaws, except that some have them mostly on the inside, while other have them equally on the outside and within. If only beautiful girls can be just as beautiful in their hearts. Ah, c'est la vie.

Rant 160 / I Believe In The Holocaust Denial Denial

Love is an urge. Being in a romantic relationship may be one of the happiest thing to happen in your life, but it is also like digging a pit at the future. Let's put it this way, when one is in a relationship, he digs, from a spot in the future, the soil to place it in the present to make him stand higher. He stands higher than the rest now, but sooner or later, he's going to have to fall into the deepest pit in his path - the one he dug from. And the longer he digs, the harder he falls. The pain will be unbearable within a decade of digging.

In chinese, one saying I've heard from an old advertisment was," Bu4 zhai4 hu1 tian1 chang2 di4 jiu3, zhi3 zhai2 hu1 cheng2 jing1 yong1 you3." It doesn't matter how long, as long as one has it before.

That is so not true and is merely something a person says after he has fallen into the pit. But those who aren't can still reverse the process. Stop digging deeper. It's just like abusing drugs. It feels fantastic now, but in the end, you're going to screw either yourself, your partner or both.

We are taught that this is something that is born in us, this instinct to mate. We are also taught that the Singaporean government is incorruptible too.

And it will not merely be pain in the end. It can drive you mad or, at the very least, change you forever. I know, I've witnessed this in real life before. Life will never be the same again for not just you, but also everyone around you after you've fallen into the pit.

It is sad how people in general are brainwashed from young to believe that they need a partner and a family. Things like TV, movies and just about every single romantic story you have ever come across are practically telling you to get a goddamned girlfriend/boyfriend in your teens and twenties.

But is it truly necessary?

Is it truly uncontrollable?

At some points in my life, I do find that I can think of nothing but that special someone. I may even dream of her. But the important thing is that after a day, it will wear off and I will become lucid again. Remaining lucid and sober is a very important thing in life.

To believe otherwise about love is to think with your heart. Your heart was never meant to think. It is not logical. It is about faith. You can believe all you want that love solves all problems, but the day this love ends is the day someone is getting seriously fucked.

But like all things in life, everyone makes his/her own decisions. This is just my opinion and I believe the price is too steep. I still want my freedom and I still want to remain the person I am today in the future. And I still want my sanity for the rest of my life.

Stay logical. Stay lucid. Get a fucking cold shower.

Rant 159 / M-m-m-m-m-m-m-MONSTER KILL!!!

Was in a taxi when I saw a piece of wood carved into the chinese character ren3, which means endure/tolerate. I thought it was an excellent concept to keep in mind when one is in the service industry. This led me back to the days when I was a receptionist-cum-security guard in the army. I had to endure many things that were not in my job description, including moronic staff who couldn't tell which column of blanks on the key registes were for their signatures even though they were all clearly labelled at the top.

One thought led to another, and eventually I recalled the time I did something funny to one of my seniors. The backstory was that he liked one of this female staff a lot but never had the guts to advance from the friend zone.

So one night he was opening the gate for her and two of her colleagues and waiting for the driver to come and bring them them down the hill. While they were waiting at the gate, I waited with my teammate at the receptionist counter( someone always has to be there). Both sides have a walkie-talkie each to communicate in case of any trouble.

So I waited for a few minutes and got impatient. It was supposed to be my rest shift after all and the driver was taking quite some time to get his car there. So I decided to talk to my friend down at the gate. As loud as I could while staying in a conversational tone, I said," Hey! What's taking so long? Stop chatting her up - she's too old for you!"

Unfortunately for him, and fortunately for me, he had turned his talkie's volume to maximum so that he won't miss anything while chatting with her. ROFLMAO!! After a few moments of anticipating an explosion, I got just that. He shouted via the talkie that he had turned the volume to max and she heard everything. It was very rude and what the hell was I doing?

I was laughing so hard I didn't bother to answer him. My other teammate next to me was laughing just as loudly while telling me I was as good as dead. I still smile whenever I think of this.

Sure enough, he stormed up after they left and gave me a big scolding, all because I embarassed him in front of his beloved. LOL! After he left, I thought it was very much worthed it. The hilarity far outweighed his anger.



OMFG the bandwidth in my hall is actually enough for me to play Atlantica Online decently! This is so amazing! Alas, there is a problem with my main, so I won't play till someone solves my problem. It is a technical issue, and I'm not surprised since this is Closed Beta. Oh well.




Heard that there is a new point-and-click action RPG with a sci-fi setting called Space Seige. Sounds like a good game, and my few glimpses at my bro's screen agrees with this. Will play it soon.

Rant 158 / What Is Olympics?

I've never seen Hitler this way, but has anyone thought about what obstacles he overcame and compare them with what he accomplished, with a neutral point of view?

I remember reading that Germany was forced to sign a very humiliating treaty after its involvement in WWI, forcing its people to live horribly. According to Wikipedia, they basically placed the blame for the war wholly on the German Empire. Its army, one of the greatest in Europe, was to be reduced to 100,000 men. And the amount of money to be paid by them caused hyperinflation in the Reichsmark. There are many others conditions, but I'll have to copy everything on the article if I describe them all.

Yet Hitler managed to make Germany into a superpower, with its army incredibly powerful and ingenious. How the fuck did he change Germany from a bankrupt nation into a country feared by all?

We never learnt all that! All we know now is that he had a Beyond God-like streak of 6M frags just among the Jewish populations alone. He was evil. He used propaganda. Yet no book I've ever come across ever described how he accomplished everything he did with what little he had to start with?

When I was young, I saw him as an evil dictator who caused great misery in the past.
When I was older, I saw him as the symbol of evil.
When I joined the Toastmasters Club, I saw him as one of the greatest speakers in history.
Now I see him as one of the greatest leaders ever born, with abilities that are, at least, on par with Peter the Great, Genghis Khan, Alexander the Great and many others. But then, he killed a lot of innocent people.

I admire him as a leader and opportunist. I just don't like his philosophy. There can't be anything wrong with that.









Atlantica Online may be one of the best MMORPGS I've ever played so far because of its gameplay. WoW is now the second best on my list and its there only because there are many players playing it, making its servers so very lively.

Atlantica Online is a turn-based MMORPG, kind of like Grandia in terms of combat, because you see the monsters walking around in the field. When you come into contact with one of them, the battle starts and you enter the combat screen.

In combat, your party will use Action Points to attack, move or whatever, just like most RPGs on consoles like PS2. The only difference is that I must complete all my actions in 30s, thus reducing the waiting time for the opponent when you're dueling with a human player.

I think I like this just because it has a turn-based combat system.

I'm still at lvl12 playing in the tutorial area where they teach me all the basic functions one by one. In fact, it takes Licenses to be able to do things like Sit and Search All corpses. So I have to wait till they're ready to teach me about each funtion before I can test them.

At lvl 12, I am able to have 4 mercenaries, increasing my party to 5 members. By lvl 50, I'll be able to have the maximum number of 8 or 9 mercenaries. How to control all of them in 30s I do not know. But I'll never hit lvl50.

This is because I'm playing AO Closed Beta 2, which means its presently in the 2nd phase of a Beta phase that allows only a limited number of players. There will be CB3 before Open Beta begins. And when it does, all accounts from CB3 will be erased.

CB3 begins on the 25th of August. CB2 ends tomorrow. So I won't be playing it like mad. It will be all gone anyway. But I'll be able to learn its systems before the actual game is out. Wonder if it will be free after OB.

Another great feature is its Automove function. It requires a License, but one License lasts 15 days of Automove. It decreases by the exact amount of time you spend Automoving down to the last second.





Never realized how some people can know so little about computers. Recently talked to another Toastmaster studying in NIE and found out that her IBM laptop costs a friggin 2.5k. Holy cow! It IS small, just like the Lenovo ones, but for 2.5k???

She doesn't play games and wanted it for its puny size and warranty. I agree that non-gamers need both of these, but I believe they can be found even in the 1.5k laptops.

So that's how they make money...

Rant 157 / Fatigue

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Rant 156 / Desire Is The Root Of All Evil, Not Money.

Watched Paprika. Good movie. Really creepy whenever reality suddenly turned out to be part of the dream. Never experienced something quite like that, but a few times I came close to it.

I realize that in order to talk in your dream, you have to want to say what you're saying from the bottom of your heart. I know, because I woke up halfway through a line before. When I became conscious and before I opened my eyes in the middle of one night, I found my mouth open and pronouncing something I cannot remember. But I remember I really wanted to say whatever it was I was going to say. In fact, I was shouting in my dreams.

The strange thing was, what woke me up was that I found the feel of saying it very hard, like my jaw muscles were lethargic. As if I had just awaken in the middle of my sleep. That connection caused me to think and stopped my dream right away. It was then that I realized that whatever I say in my sleep, I'm probably quite serious about it. If it's a lie that I'm saying, it is likely I really want to tell that lie. LOL it's no help at all.

Another time I woke up seriously confused. I was having a slight fever and had some strange yet exciting dreams. I knew it was exciting because my shirt was wet when I awoke. And it wasn't piss.

When I opened my eyes, I kept thinking I had to contact someone. What I remember about the dream was that I was going to arrest someone, but an organization with higher authority stopped it. I was going to ask for an explanation but I woke up right then.

And then I saw my surroundings and was totally confused. The thought that I had to contact them kept repeating itself in my mind, but I also saw that I was lying in my bed. Which train of thought was I supposed to follow? Do I have to find a phone? But what number should I call? How do I find it? Am I sleeping? Is this room mine? What am I doing here?

Fever. Does strange things to your mind.

Among all the common illnesses out there, I'd really prefer a flu, simply because I'm almost immune to runny noses. In fact, something's weird about my nasal passage such that mucus does not run into my nose when it's supposed to be flooded. It's fine normally, but when I get a flu, I choke on my mucus instead. It's like having some rather fluid phlegm all the time. I cough a lot, but I don't have to blow my nose. Not like certain people who blow their nose right in the bloody tutorial room loudly during class. I mean, please, the washroom is about 10m away on both the right and left of the doors. GTFO before blowing. We don't need to listen to your nasal evacuation process. Not in class. Do that during dinner please. With your parents, mind you, not with us. I'd love to see their faces. Please learn some fucking manners and common sense.

Now that's another example of why I said it takes at least 3 generations for a society to become significantly more cultured and civilized.

Well, actually even I have no idea if that's a form of manners, since no one's told me anything about that. But I do find it slightly repulsive and disturbing when someone's blowing their nose loudly in a quiet area. It amplifies the watery noise.









Golgo 13. An anime that lacks that exciting combat action that Naruto and Bleach have. It's 40 years old after all. Uses a lot of still pictures and manga-type of effects like the straight lines exploding from the guy and stuff like that. But Golgo 13's skill with guns is ridiculously ridiculous. With a modified M16, he shot at the exact same point from a distance of 700m. I mean, I know this is fiction, but did you need to shove it into my face? Fucking cool, lot's of WTF moments. It's like the grandfather of all popular action anime.





I made shortbread. Evidently, some were removed, while they were still warm, for beta testing.



A couple prepares chocolate fondue for us. The Overlord oversees the process.



"Can't this creepy guy leave? We need some privacy here please."



"fgsdjs"



Does Ivan feed you chocolate so happily, XL? Does he? Does he?!?!?



This is just green tea, but apparently it's working as well as alcohol.



Translation of expression:
- CM: I like this guy.
- HX: I like this slave.




The chocolate! It's all mine! MINE!



HX doesn't like me taking such photos.


But these are such great shots of the Overlord.



Especially this!



If CM is reading this, take note of the state of the bolster. HX is gentle only when he is conscious, if at all.

Rant 155 / Feel The Burn

I find that many people are overly expressive of their emotions in many situations. Of course, the biggest example would be Taiwanese TV shows. But in their case, the entertainers are required to exaggerate their feelings unless they're supposed to have a "cool" image. In real life though, no one is required to do the same. So why do people scream in surprise? Scream. Surprise. Pleasant event. Scream. DOES NOT COMPUTE!

This is but one of the many things that people exaggerate in real life. Do they do so because they cannot control their emotions, or because they think they're supposed to act that way?

I believe in the latter, especially when it comes to females. My guess is that they are influenced by TV, all that drama and shit. Guys are less prone to such outbursts, but they do scream together with the ladies who initiated that moment of embarassing madness. I remember once when I was travelling in a bus with a group of friends when we went past a certain shop that had a very unique name. The first time, we chuckled about it and had a good laugh after that. The next time we went past that, one guy pointed out that we were approaching the same shop and all the girls screamed in excitement. The guy too.

What?

I was shocked. I do not comprehend. What made it so ridiculously amazing that we are going past that shop with a funny name? For fuck's sake, that wasn't the first time we saw it! Screaming served absolutely no purpose whatsoever in this situation, aside from making a din.





People are born conformists. The April edition of TIME says so. People generally do what everyone else is doing. I believe this is the same with romantic relationships. In fact, this is precisely why primary school kids get girlfriends and boyfriends. Fuck, they can't even have a fucking erection and they're already preparing for that? Where the fuck is the logic? How the fuck did they begin to want a romantic relationship? The inborn instinct to conform to the environment, of course.

Which may seem wrong at first. I don't like it, but it makes the world go round. If people aren't conformists in general, we wouldn't have taxpayers. Tax was invented to make the rich contribute more to the society. The logic was that by making everyone pay a percentage of their income, rich people would pay more. But let's face it - this isn't happening now. In terms of actual numbers, it is true. But relative to what each of us own, rich people are paying less! Blame this on the tax laws for companies and benefits of working in one.

And why are rich people given more free stuff than the others? Why are CEOs and directors given free first class seats by their companies? These are nothing to them, so why bother giving them? Why not split up the costs and give the lower employees free budget airline seats? This would be much, much more to these people for the same price. Efficiency and effectiveness is increased.

But logic isn't how the world works. Oh no. Logic rarely guides how people behave. Studies have shown that people rationalize after the deed is done,ie, people do things first and think why they do it second. Where is the logic in this? None!






Found out that Romans used to worship a god of the penis, Priapus. This minor god has a permanent erection. A certain painful medical condition is also name after him. Priapism, the condition in which a person's erection does not stop at all. Also, there is still a religion that worships the penis.

Where can I worship the vagina? Where is the justice?? Female genetilia needs our worship too! Ah, but that why we have porn. People worship the vagina that way, paying tribute to this magnificient... body part... in their own homes, without having an official religion for it.




Tired.